God's ministry in my vulnerability
I was called
yesterday by the doctor 👨⚕️ to discuss the result of the final diagnosis 📄 and required
treatment. Nope! the result wasn’t favorable and wasn't good at all👎.
I w
as told to
undergo 6-8 sessions of chemotherapy that would cost Dhs 6000 / session + 17
shots of Herceptin that cost Dhs 14,000/ shot + a 5-year oral medication. Translation
and conversion, roughly PHP 3.5 to 4 M ..
I am not citing
here the amount to ask for donation; just to let you know that GOD will and had
provided for me since childhood; so, He will do same ... I am confident 👌about that.
I have been
crying since I went out of the hospital, calling my family and friends; just
wanted to feel the comfort I needed ...
after some
time, I managed to compose myself, went back to the office, then go home and
started pouring my heart out. I am devastated, heart broken and all.
Again, I was crying
rivers; scared on the effect of chemotherapy, not knowing if my body would
survive it.
"bakit ako Lord?
bakit kelangan ako? ❓❓❓ (why me? why it has to be me?) ... and mind you, it hurts me so
much that God was so quiet.
Today, I
prayed... GOD, it’s either you heal me, or you let me die… whatever it is,
BAHALA KA NA!Until this
time, I didn't have the answers... but what He had put in my heart ❤️is a brand-new
hope! a promise! that whatever I am going through, HE is in control.
This is the
prayer of someone who is uncertain of what will happen, but whose heart is now
fully dependent on Him.
Trusting GOD to
minister in my vulnerability. Whatever HIS purpose, let it be. 🙇♀️🙏
2 Timothy 1;12 " I know whom I have believed ; and am convinced that he is able to guard what I have entrusted to him until that day.